Thursday, June 30, 2016

dear vulnerable me child

i'm still here.  moving around on planet earth.

your courage helped me survive.

you were vulnerable and helpless.  he took advantage of you mercilessly.  shame and humiliation, violence and torment - his weapons.

you were defenseless against his strength and brutality.  evil.

your body damaged beyond repair.  your soul distorted.  your heart broken.  your mind twisted.

your spirit - invincible.

you survived.

you are still overcoming.


Wednesday, June 29, 2016

dear fifty year old me

i'm seven now.  still surviving.

i can't see you.  i don't know you.

i want you to be there.  somewhere in the future.

i want to help you make it.  but sometimes all i can do is to barely keep breathing.

i can't give up.  i can't give in.  i can't accept that this is all there is.  life can't all be this vile.  this painful.  this frightening.  this sad.

i can tell you that i believe god is real.  that's about all i know for sure.

god is real.

jesus is real.

he knows.  knows all.

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

dear five year old me

you were pretty brave back then.
resourceful.
resilient.
creative.

you thought things were normal and yet you somehow knew no one would believe the terrifying reality of your life.

you were so little.
so young.
so petrified.

you survived.

you are still overcoming.