small.
fearful. fragile. furious.
nothing. i try. stops him.
everything. i try. provokes him.
rage and terror. boil. in my stomach.
disgust and repulsion. torture. my mind.
confusion and rebellion. derail. my heart.
shame and sadness. shadow. my life.
i feel powerless. senseless. useless.
with little faith. i turn to jesus.
i fight. in my mind. to give him. my thoughts.
i ache. in my heart. to trust him. completely.
his life. his death. his word.
show me. he asks nothing of me. he doesn't do himself.
he knows pain. grief. loss. abandonment. torment.
yet.
he forgives sinners. rescues captives. frees prisoners.
saves lives. heals hearts. breaks chains. loves people.
we are made. in his image. to imitate him.
i believe.
he knows. knows all.
